Closing up on my time in Arizona..

"There's a last time for everything" Today has been rough, I gotta say I've grown attached to this house and to the good people I've met living down here. Today is the day we move out of this wonderful house and spend the next week or so either in a hotel or at the track. I've got a race coming up here this weekend out at Motoland and I hope to do well there although I do not have a lot of experience on that track (I've only been there once). Then we'll be posted up in the hampton in during the week and at the Pro-Am on the weekend out at Arizona Cycle Park. And then we should be wrapping it up here and moving back home to Utah :/, I'm super excited to see all my friends and family although I'm going to miss the warm weather. It's been great living here because back home the pressure of working and having a social life was beginning to build up but out here it seemed like none of that mattered (partially because I've got an awesome dad that pays for everything ha) and I just focused on having fun, my way. Anyways here are some pictures of my week and I look forward to seeing you guys back in Utah! God Bless.

I was saved, and this is my story.

"The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower."- Psalms 18:1-2 My whole life I've believed in God, and my whole life I've felt somewhat of a connection to Jesus. But it wasn't till early 2010 that I truly turned to Jesus Christ for help. My troubles began around 2007 when I made the biggest mistake of my life by turning to Drugs and Alcohol for comfort. I began smoking weed and drinking because it was what my friends were doing, we all just experimenting at first but pretty soon, it became almost a daily occurence, and I had became someone I had never wanted to be. I had given up all that was important to me to live a life I onced hated and feared. I was my worst nightmare, I turned a cold shoulder on my family and friends and left them for the life of partying, all at the innocent age of 15-16. Although not spiritually, I was finally awakened from my addiction when I was arrested and ordered to a Rehabilitation class for three weeks. I saw the end result of the road I was taking and I turned around and headed back for the straight and narrow (although I was yet to connect with God). After I kicked my addiction, I became devoted to the straight edge life; struggles still came from losing all my friends (a majority of them, now completely consumed by drugs and alcohol), and the guilt of betraying my family churned in stomach like bad food. I was not happy.
For the next year or so I continued to struggle with the guilt of the mistakes I had made, I became violent and angry at myself which then turned to violence and anger towards the world. I couldn't understand how drugs had taken over such a massive part of the world when the only thing that drugs creates is problems. I hated everyone who had anything to do with drugs, and that included myself.
Throughout my struggles with anger towards the world, I had fallen in love with girl, who, to put it lightly, didn't have the same feelings back. This became a heavy weight on my shoulders on top of all the mistakes I made, the guilt, and anger I was brought to my knees; but I soon found a way to vent all that agression I had: Hardcore and Punk Rock music. I grew to love and to this day still love, Hardcore and Punk music, because of the aggression and passion that fuels the music. But I also grew to love it because of the many friends I made because of the Hardcore and Punk scene. I had found a place to fit in, and things were almost perfect apart from the heartbreak of the girl I cared for. Unfortunately that heartbreak soon became too much to handle, I couldn't find happiness anymore, even when my friends tried as hard as they could to bring me up, I still felt down. And just as things seemed to be lost for me, I finally made the decision to reach a hand out to Jesus, and he reached back. I had felt the holy spirit and from that moment I knew I had been saved, while I still struggled with sadness from time to time, I was blessed with the strength to overcome it. Anytime I was down, I turned to Jesus and again, he was there for me. The Lord became the one thing that I could always turn to for help, and I felt a connection so strong with God that I still feel today. I was a violent, angry kid who had done very little for God and he still blessed me with the strength to overcome it all, and he continues to bless me today, even though I still am FAR from perfect, and never will be a perfect person. I had become a full-blown "jesus freak" and I hadn't even read the bible and had very little knowledge of the teachings and story of Jesus Christ. While I still have a lot to learn, I'm proud to say I'm Christian and I'm excited to continue to learn more of Jesus Christ and to better my relationship with God. While I know tough times still lie ahead, I now have courage and faith, that Jesus will always be there for me.

Here we go, 2011

"All my life needed was a sense of someplace to go.....now I see clearly my whole life is pointed in one direction." 2011 has been off to a great start, I've been living in Arizona for the winter to get away from the snow and other troubles of Utah. I've got to live in an amazing house stocked with a pool and hot tub, pool table, giant TV, horseshoe pits, firepit, and plenty of space and fresh air. This is the first time I've lived away from Utah and away from my family (apart from my dad, being as he is here with me.) and while I have been living very comfortably here, its been tough being away from my family and my select friends. I miss you all! Living down here has brought much needed "me" time and I've had the oppurtunity to meet some awesome people, as well as spend more time to get closer to God and my lord and savior, Jesus Christ. I've got BIG plans for 2011 and I'm excited to see where things go and to push myself as hard as ever, to take my chance (althought it is a small one) at excelling in racing. My goals have been to win a race down here in AZ, and I was lucky enough to accomplish that on the 6th of February, and future goals include qualify for Loretta Lynns', and Ponca City and to do well at those two races. I also have plans to go Texas for two, 2 week-long championships here towards the end of the month. I've got a long and tough journey ahead of me and I'm off to a slow start being as I'm almost 20 ha but I'm excited to give it my all and see how things go. Above all, I'm excited to continue to pursue my relationship with God and Jesus Christ and to also be a soldier in God's army and help those who come my way, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen! God Bless.